9/21/2010

typically.

usually,
i would try to escape this place.
the overwhelming darkness that
at times can engulf you.
pulling you down,
so deep inside yourself
that the melancholy
becomes apparent.
it shows in your movements,
you wear it on your sleeve.
your eyes
refuse to lie,
no longer
harbor misery.

so you take refuge
in the most toxic of
solace
drowning feelings in
bottles & ounces.
anything to pass these
moments while at the
same time seeing
nothing.

but instead of surrendering
to the allure of escapism,
i've decided to just live
in this mindstate.
no alteration
or impairments.
to gain
understanding,
i have to be
alone.
in the dark.
alone.
with the pain.
& sorrow filled
thoughts.

until i am aware.

2 comments:

  1. been running rampid throughout your blog . still at it. strong and stronger than ever . i send the fondest love and peace your way, faheema.

    God bless .

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  2. thank you jasmine!
    you're such a wonderful spirit!
    stay beautiful. :)

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